"And everyone is ashamed of you"

Hello. I'll keep myself anonymous because I honestly think having a blog is cheesy, but I also couldn't keep myself from sharing me and my life with the world. Or at least give people the oppurtunity to take a look. I guess I'm not a very private person.
Everybody see, this is a hard ride for I am not a very interesting person, but I'll tell you everything there is to know about me.
I'm a paranoid schizophrenic, have spent more than enough time being hospitalized and unfortunately had to drop out of high school.  So, so far, I'm a mentally ill high school dropout.
I'll tell you a little about being schizophrenic:
It's awful.
And I'm afraid that is all there is to say about it - you wake up in the middle of the night, and someone put a dead pig in your room. Your own mother put up a camera to film you puking after you had binged. You were forced by your own mind to overdose on paracetamol. The robot insects films you, and you have to cover every hole in your room with toothpaste. You laugh at something sad, and everyone is ashamed of you.
Hideous, hideous, I tell you.
But as I said, I won't keep anything from you; everything I experience you'll experience.
I used to write stories, but after I have fallen ill, I haven't got that much of a surplus to do anything, but I'll share some stories with you once in a while. I'm working on a major novel called Dance with Lonely Shadows, and actually - right now, I'll tell you what it's about:
It's about this guy, a lonely fellow. He's a social worker, and ends up hitting one of his clients with his car, by accident, of course. He can't just leave the corpse there, so he decides to take it home sdkdklsdlksdk I just realised I'm really bad at telling what my stories are about. I'll just post some of it later, it's easier that way.
Also, I started playing guitar. I'm really bad at it. And I write music. Which I also am really bad at. I can't sing. Or play. Or write lyrics. Or music. DON'T WORRY, I'LL SHARE IT ANYWAY!
It's just, I don't feel like leaving this Earth before I've published a book and an EP.


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